GoodBye BESTFRIEND

HELLO PEOPLE...

Well, here I am again.
You must be thinking what topics am I choosing to write now-a-days.
I know it is something weird but this is again  some of us might have experienced in our lives..\

The hardest part of any friendship is when it's time to say goodbye. As much as we might like things to stay the same, change is an inevitable part of life. The universe may seem huge and the rift between friends on opposite side of the world may seem a great distance. There are many tools available with which we can communicate, but even without these tools there is a secret that only real friends know, and it is this. All the mountains and valleys in the world cannot separate friends whose hearts are as one!

I had a best friend in my college, someone whom I used to rely on so much, share each and every moment of my life with, talk for endless hours and never felt it enough to have it. I thought I had finally got my BEST FRIEND for life, the one who was just a perfect person to be with.But who knew what the fate had it for me.
Just before my college was officially about to get over, we had a misunderstanding something created from outside but heated upon by our own words and actions.
We started drifting apart, we stopped talking and today its almost 4 months that I have had a talk with him.




Little did I realized that I have lost him forever. How?
After we had stopped talking to each other, I still used to care about whats going on in his life and try and help me out indirectly with the help of a mutual friend we had.
But, now I see that he certainly don't want me in his life. He has not only stopped talking to me but Blocked me too. First i was in shock, but few minutes later I realized that he really don't want to be in touch, forgetting everything we had, we did, we shared... JUST EVERYTHING.



It's time to move on..

I told myself ** He was, He is and He will always have a special part in my life, no matter where we are, what we are, I will not give his part to anyone else. Whether we talk or not, be in contact or not, meet or not. Be it strangers, He will be my BEST FRIEND till the very end. I was true in my friendship and I will continue doing that till the very end just making sure not letting it disturb me again rather make me happy that you are now working towards being more independent what I always wanted you to be. This is the last note where I have mentioned you, is about you.**

I would like to end this with few lines for you, may be the last poem of my life it will be.                         
                                                                   

Emotions ran through my head

I found myself wishing I was dead

All because you were moving away

I knew I would never see you another day

You were the best friend I ever had

Now that you left me, I am beyond sad

I love and I miss you more than you ever knew

You've taught me so much, and I want to say thank you.

I know things are not meant to be the same,
I wish it was for the heaven's sake
It's okay if it is not
All i want is to hear a lot, 

There will be a day we will meet
I am always looking forward to that greet,
Just hoping it to be the way it used to be
Not like strangers on the road we
see.
GOODBYE BEST FRIEND! <3


                

What you learned from a big disappointment.?

 A regular question people might ask themselves of "What have 

they learned from being getting disappointed?'
Right..
Think a minute Have you?

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Well, honestly I have.
I have been into too much of disappointments in my life either be it studies, friends, career, relation or what not a common person goes through in a single day every moment.



Starting up with Studies...
Not everyone is born intelligent. Not everyone is made to top the class. Not everyone enjoys studying. Not everyone is a master in Science or maths or any subject.
Everyone has a subject to hate be it practical or theory or mathematics.
I had it all. I hated studying but I loved Music.
May be it was something I was made of. Yes, I know you must be wondering how can one just become a graduate when she only loved singing.
Well, here the point is I changed my point of view of hating studying to be a great singer while not lacking behind in my Grades also. This made me work on my grades more, and enjoy my singing career too. I got a leap in my school from being shy to being a part of the school choir to being the First lead singer of the school. I represented my school at various levels and the biggest achievement is when everyone around me remembered me as the SINGING GIRL OF THE SCHOOL. The confidence I gained their reflected in my grades and I scored much high than my expectations.

Friends, the second thing any youngster thinks about. I always had a problem to carry on my friendships for long time due to my being quite nature all the time. But never loosing hope and always continuing to be my best was my strength. I learned that although I was quite and was usually misinterpreted by others I used to be the one people looked upon at their time of need. I have lost many friends during my journey of life, I even have met the most amazing people too but have lost the gems too. But, loosing someone in your life doesn't mean that it was not right that I knew that person but it meant that their role in our lives was meant to be only little and yet they had to leave without any reason.

Career, the third thing, I always wanted to do JOURNALISM AND MASS COMMUNICATION but hated studying. I was disappointed for not being good enough to get into it. I learned that when you don't give up you surely get what you want and the happiness of that thing is much more than what could have been if you would have got it easily.

Relation, the last thing on my list here. Although the list is endless but for my blog I would like to end it here only.
Relationships, everyone wants to get one, a one where both dream it to be fairy tale but most of us had it as a nightmare.
Don't laugh here. I had it a nightmare.
I never found a true love, when I thought I had it din't worked out. Eventually, we both moved out of it. It doesn't mean the love has ended but the things that follow them eventually tells you that " IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER IF I HAD NEVER MET HIM" but atleast it taught me that this "LOVE" thing do exist.

At the end, all I  want to say is that  NO MATTER HOW ROUGH THE JOURNEY OF OUR LIFE IS, IT IS SURE TO TEACH YOU SOMETHING. ALL YOU NEED IS TO STAY HAPPY, FAKE A SMILE FOR A WHILE AND HEAD STRONG. NOT TODAY BUT THERE WILL BE A DAY WHEN YOU WILL REALIZE WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED FROM ALL THE DISAPPOINTMENTS YOU HAVE FACED TILL NOW AND THEY HAVE MADE YOU A MUCH BETTER PERSON THAN WHAT YOU MIGHT HAVE THOUGHT YOU COULD BE.!

ALL THE BEST! ;)

Random Thought! My people!

Every day we experience so many thoughts, few are some of those which we cherish and few are the ones we regret being a part off.
I too have been a victim of so many different thoughts in a moment or say in a day.
There was a time when a thought made me smile but later it made me cry.
Many a times thoughts are the reasons you start dreaming about the *PERFECT* life.

The most important thought: Is it worth loosing the people?


I never want a life which has fame, so much of money, perfect big house or cars or like everything which now is so common.
My view of perfect life is the one where you are contented with all what you have, desire for no more yet happy even if you are at times having nothing because the most important things *LOVE* *FRIENDS* and *FAMILY* are there!


I just wish there is Trust, Loyalty, Peace, Understanding all around and you don't want materialist things to make you happy.
Everyone dream of their own Dream Life, But I dream of Simple life.!
One I will make soon with never giving up, with getting back the people I have lost either with the lost of contact or misunderstandings and live with them in my own small world.

I just wish to have my people, all the ones I have lost or I am loosing to be there with me till the very end of my life.
I have never had anyone whom I don't love in my life, all my people are my precious treasure. And I wanna cherish that treasure till my last breath with no regrets!

To all the ones I LOVE!
To all the ones I lOST!
To all MY PEOPLE!
MY LIFE! <3

TrUsT

She Has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She Appears So Strong On The Outside,
But On The Inside Her World Is Spinnin Upside Down.
Shes Smiling And Standing Tall 2 The Outta World,
Shes Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.

She Appears So Happy 2 Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not 2 Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
Shes Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
Shes Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
1 Touch, & She'll Flinch
1 Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
1 Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down

She Trusts No1, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her 2 Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes No1, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep 2 Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong

I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...
Is Me.

A WHOLE NEW FRIENDSHIP : ENDS on high note

It was mystic how suddenly we become friends..
One day, we are strangers and moments later we become friends.

It so happened with me when I met my new friend.
We were batch mates but haven't been very familiar with each other until we came in college and started interacting through messages.
Slowly and gradually we became very good friends, sharing everything with each other (almost) i would say.
We used to spend times chatting and talking no matter what.

That silly fights, arguments, sweet talks, non sense chats, funny pics sharing, taking opinion , sharing thoughts, fears, dreams, caring ...................... It used to be as if we will be *FRIENDS FOREVER* ..!


Overtime, we started having more and more arguments, no talks, fights, which used to left us not talking to each other but somewhere wanting this cold war to end.
But, this didn't happened.
With busy schedules, even during vacations , we started drifting apart.. so much that one day finally,
He came up and said *Friendship Over* ..
It left me with no words, no explanations, no meaning of what happened, HOW? WHEN, WHY?
I questioned, I tried to explain, I tried to ask ... But all i got in response was silent..
Because all this was never said : It was as if I have become dumb.

WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN : eventually resulted in our friendship to end.

A SECRET ** :  I secretly wished that we talk, and resolve the matter, we be back together as *FRIENDS* : who used to tease each other, show love and care despite of who will think what. <3


Finally it's *FRIENDSHIP DAY* : A day to remember.

I wished him * Happy Friendship Day * the reply come..
**OMG** he replied : unexpected ..!

Though we din't talked much.. But I am happy we did exchanged wishes.
It feels good to know that even though miles apart, we will still remain friends by heart ..!


No matter what happens, a friend .. once a friend... remains forever the friend..!

LOVE YOU *FRIEND* :)

A LOST LOVE : LOVE FOUND AND LOST..!

It all started through a social networking famous site called *FACEBOOK*.
One day, a gal  got a request from a guy named.
The gal checked his profile and got to know that he is the person from the school which she used to be in.
She accepted his request. They both had many mutual friends, likes / dislikes etc. Soon they started interacting because she was not in touch with her childhood friends from that school from long and she longed to get back in touch with them, and getting to know this person she got to know that the last year when she attended this school he was in her class but due to she being restricted and shy she never knewed much people of her class except the ones she knew from years.
They over the due course of time of chatting became very good friends, exchanged their numbers, met each other, fall in love.
The guy proposed the gal one day, but the gal said: “she needed time”.
The guy said: “as much as you want take it, I will wait”.
It took almost a year for the gal to confess and soon they got in a relation. It was all perfect till the time they were in 12^th class, gave each other time, but they never realized that it was not going to be this perfect forever.
It was a dream come true for the gal to get a partner who no matter what loved her and that’s what she always wanted.
Now, it was the time they had to being their journey of making careers and their relation took a troll.
The guy went to become a Flying Aviator and the gal a journalist.
The guy changed, gave less time to her not because he was busy in his studies but because he dint feel the need. He started taking her for granted, called her whenever he used to feel after days or months, met her after say months or even a year, but the gal dint said anything just to hold the relationship.
Soon the friends of the gal started saying to her that he is not loyal, he doesn't love her etc.
This made the gal start questioning him because the more she thought of him betraying her, the more she could see it in his actions.
The guy never took an initiative to submerge the misunderstandings, rather he let them come.
One day, finally after getting fed up with all this she told him to broke up, he agreed to it while saying if you are happy with this, I won’t say anything then.
This made the gal’s heart broke down, and she used to cry hours lying in bed at night but never let it know by anyone.
Soon when she started coming out of the pain of heart break and forgetting about him, he again tried to be in contact with him.
And this went on for many months, every time the gal started coming out of him, he used to contact him from nowhere and she again began to become weak for his love.
One fine day, she took a pledge that no matter what she won’t become weak, and never let him affect her so much.
Even though he still tried the same thing, but this time the gal became more adamant and harsh and never talk to him or respond him the way she used to.
She understood that her love for him cannot let him love her.
He won’t come back. And he never came too.
It’s been a year now the gal has started living with the broken heart, lost love feeling in her, although she sometimes crave of his hugs and kisses and warmth but this dint stopped her from becoming a strong person and not giving up on her dreams and future.
She is now about to graduate and soon will be in the field, and the boy is chasing his dreams.
Both are living their own lives, no matter what problems they are going through.
The gal always keeps smiling and the people think that she has come out of him, but no one knows how much she loves him still no matter what.
The love got lost in a blink between them, but the true love of the gal is still the same, and she is bound to love him with her every breath … Till the last breath..!!
After him, she did get attached to a guy and thought that was not true love, but this is and the answer to this always remain same i.e.; ‘NO, YOU STILL LOVE HIM AND CAN NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELSE’.

She takes a deep breath, smile and lives on.
But she still wait for him, hoping one day he might come back and show her how truly he loves her too.

Falling in Love

** The time was uncertain,
falling was never on my mind
It was the time you came,
that I saw  no rewind,
I never thought of something like this to happen,
You made it certain,
That one person I thought to be mine,
You managed to hop in my mind,
Life is so unpredictable
Uncertain things happen when you least expect
The way, YOU happened...


The feeling was inexpressible,
It was escastic ..
Yet, you managed to feel it..
Made me feel it.
I know, something was there,
But this was something out of the fear.
You made me feel
Which maybe I would never have,
 if you wouldn't have had happened..!

You came..




AND THEN...





You left ....




I was left all alone again,
The feeling of betrayal..
The feeling of being cheated on..
I was deeply hurt-ed..
You did what you said you never will,
You disrespected me..
 MY LOVE.. MY CARE.. MY LOYALTY..


You lied me...

I cried..
And cried..
But I knew you will never come back.
Because what you did,
was something the least I could expect,


The time went by..
N slowly..
Gradually..
I started coming out of it..
But that pain still resided..


After so many years..
When I stopped thinking about you..
You entered in my life again..
You tried to melt the ice in my heart..
The space you created will never get filled again
I can never Love the same..
This experience made me realize..
Life is only of your size..
I never said I HATE YOU..
But I can never LOVE YOU..!


You made me feel all the emotions I had..
You made me understand the turmoil of feelings..
You made me realize the importance of MY OWN SELF..
You made me become strong enough to not do that mistake again..
You made me realize ...
Some DREAMS can never come TRUE..



Yet I did not give up on me..
Went again into all this again..

But this time..
Having faith on me..

I never expected too much..
But this too ended with a Storm..


I promise..
I won't FALL IN LOVE AGAIN..
Even if I will..
I will never let my feelings destroy me..
I won't let the one know about it..


AND yes....

I AM DOING IT.!  **

GIRL : love yourself..!

Everyone has a point in life when they get so low that they stop loving themselves. 

low point help us to know what we really are, not to shun ourselves off the reality.

i was born as a girl,

 no one gave me so much love,

i always asked myself 

m i really not worth..?

life gave me so much,

today, i love being called a girl.

life is not easy
it depends on you how you see
girls are beautiful
learn to engrave it
love yourself
however you may look
fat,skinny, black or white
it's you who will make someone's life alright...


no matter what people say to you,
you should be proud of you
you are a girl..!
no one has the power
the power to smile in pain..
the power to get hurt and forgive and still love..
this is a girl..!
respect yourself..
and the world will respect you..
love yourself first ..
everyone will do that to you..

PROUD TO BE A GIRL..! 

never underestimate yourself for anything..love the way you are..

and who knows you get someone who'll give you all the love you deserve in the world more than you know..!

Searching everywhere... but no where..!

I was once sad and lonely,

having nobody to comfort me,

so I wore a mask that always smiled :)

to hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, i had many friends;

with my mask, I was one of them.

But deep inside, I still felt empty,

Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night

For i designed my mask to hide lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.
Behind all the smiles :) were the tears.
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.
Day by day, I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
there was something missing..
Untill now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.
But till then I'll keep on smiling :)
Hiding behind the mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'LL BE HERE...


**WAITING** 

challenge to be victorious..!

Each day starts with a new *hope* *aims* *fights* *determination*

A new vow to make this day worth living..! But every day has anew challenge.. It depends upon us how we see it and fight it. The outcome depends upon are way of viewing things. the more good we see the more harder we try to win the more stronger will be the obstacle (challenge)..!

NEVER GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT.!

Some times I know we feel like giving up, but backup yourself and start having a power of never losing in your HEART. For sure you are gonna win in the end. The victory for which you have not done anything will not be a victory worth celebrating. But if you resolve even for a small thing the victory will seem big enough to rejoice in the END..!!

Never think that you can not do anything. All hurdles comes only according to limit we can challenge and succeed. If u think that this challenge id big for you, don't give up rather strive because it came to you to make you even more stronger and a true fighter in life.

LIFE IS DAILY FIGHT WE HAVE TO WIN EVERY MOMENT..!!